Breaking through
each sleeping layer of self
I emerge
from this dark night of the soul
Unfurling tendrils of thought
I feed upon the Light
swallowing whole Truths
in a single gulp
stretching impossibly wide
to take it all in
drinking down the Moon
in all Her full blown glory
Until,
Light begins to shine
through me
Bright beams of Truth
kindling with my acceptance
revealing Wisdom unguessed
hidden within my depths
like priceless gems
within the cave of my heart
But you would not see the Truth in me.
Rejecting those beams of Light
just as I was stubbornly blind
to the Darkness within you
for so long
I was not ready to see
your delusions
your jealousies
your selfish ways
your need to be lied to
and led, oh so easily,
down any path
but one of your own choosing
How you loved your Shadowself
more than the bright flashes
I once believed to be the true you
Once so close, in my mind’s eye,
we might have shared the same shadow
you and I
Until the day came
for me to lay my Shadow to rest
When you turned from
my Day bright Truths
in fear and anger
blaming me for all your unhappiness
all your fears come home to roost
once more
as your own children languished
in the barren Night you had chosen
unable to thrive
on the hollow Illusions
that laden your table
Thrust into a bitter Winter
where you blissfully remember
only a Summer that never existed
Only then could I see you
for what you really were
Only then could I embrace
the Night and Day of my Self
In exchange for my loyalty
you gave me betrayal
In exchange for my love
you gave me jealousy and anger
In exchange for a place in my family
you treated us all like enemies
In exchange for each bright Truth
I tried to give you
you gave me nothing
except lies
dark nights to burden my soul
petty pity-me tantrums
Sugar spun dreams
because they tasted better on your tongue
than the cold ashes Truth would leave behind
I see you now as you truly are
Light and Dark
not just the true friend
I once believed you to be
I can see how much you prefer
the easy winding road of good intentions
that your imagination
lays out before you
I saw everything with clear eyes at last
Only then could I let go of you
For you prefer your Illusions to Truth
My Shadow,
and I choose Truth,
Light,
Love,
Laughter
over that empty fearful void any day
even if it hurts or takes more work
even if it hurts or takes more work
I no longer carry
the cold heavy stone of you about my neck
My shoulders don’t ache any more
from the burden of carrying you so far
Left beside the road
an unmarked headstone
for an empty grave
where lies the Illusion of who you were to me
Sister
Friend
Fellow champion
of ideals and truth
I find the ghost of my Shadow
has left hardly a footprint
in the dunes of my memories
While the rest of you walks off
towards false horizons
you love more
than the Truth of your choices
Happy trails!
Rest in peace, my Shadow
Until the Wheel turns
Until we meet again
a little wiser for the wear
I hope,
Less willing to offer you
a piece of my soul on a silver plate
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